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Gabby Pascuzzi on Tears, Approaching Peers and Online Cheers

The technical writer thought she had finished the guide to a winning <em>Survivor</em> game, only to get her big move overwritten by a clutch idol play.

Survivor: David vs. Goliath has arrived! Each week, Parade‘s Mike Bloom will bring you interviews with the castaway most recently voted off of the island.

Playing Survivor is an intense, intimate situation that is comparable to being a part of a family. Since the very first day, Gabby Pascuzzi formed a bond with fellow self-professed nerd Christian Hubicki, and the two became a dynamic duo that spent every day together, framing the game under their respective sets of frames. But a reminder of home via the show’s conventional household go to contextualized the stakes for Gabby. As such, she tried to chop her Survivor household ties and organized a plan to get rid of Christian. However like all plans to take away the roboticist, it went up in smoke when he performed his idol, bouncing the votes again onto Gabby courtesy of security precautions from Mike White and Angelina Keeley.

Gabby’s journey, as she mirrored on what can be her final Tribal Council, was all about reassurance. Within the premerge part, her overthinking acquired the perfect of her, which led her to query somebody when she wasn’t given sufficient info or affirmation. In her very first vote, reticence from Jessica Peet and Bi Nguyen as to the plan at hand prompted her to flip to the aspect prepared to reveal extra. When a swap had her probably dealing with the “brochacho” guillotine, she leaned on Christian profusely and branched out to Alison Raybould within the hopes that the physician would toss her a lifeline. After a tumultuous set of merge-time rounds full of benefits, blindsides and tears, the underdogs had grow to be the highest canine, because the Davids have been capable of safe a majority for the primary time within the recreation. However Gabby was feeling blue about her fellow tribe members in orange, particularly the best way “Godfather” Carl Boudreaux was treating her. She felt he seemed down on her, a notion solely amplified when he left her out of the alliance’s plans to eliminate Alison. As such, she deliberate successful on the brand new mob boss, bringing collectively a coalition of Davids and Goliaths to ship the trucker off the street. Nonetheless driving that prime, she shocked everybody within the recreation and turned her goal subsequent to her closest ally, Christian, feeling the jury was relating to him because the alpha of the pair. When Gabby noticed her mom on Day 31, she informed her tearfully, “I’m almost done.” These phrases proved to be prophetic as soon as Tribal Council arrived. Christian, on a tip-off from Davie Rickenbacker, relieved his paranoia and foot ache by enjoying his idol, squashing Gabby’s plan. Consequently, she went out with solely two votes towards her, a smile on her face and jovial declaration of affection to Christian on her approach out.

Now out of the sport, Gabby talks with us about what was going via her head because the Tribal Council progressed, how the looming presence of the top affected her technique and what the reception has been to her recreation and portrayal on the present.

It was fairly the emotional episode final night time, between the household go to and you deciding to show on Christian. What was it like watching all of that again final night time?
Surprisingly, I used to be not as emotional as I assumed I might be! [Laughs] I feel I laid out my causes for my considering very clearly within the episode, and it was reassuring to observe that again and keep in mind the place my head was at that a part of the sport. I used to be feeling the top of the sport creeping up at us, and I knew I couldn’t go to the top with Christian. I used to be proud to see my thought course of and see I needed to win. I didn’t need to are available second or third place.

What have been you considering when Christian paused and tried to gauge everybody’s reactions earlier than enjoying his idol? I can think about you have been making an attempt your greatest to not give something away.
[Laughs] Precisely! I used to be making an attempt to play it cool. I’m like, “OK, high school theater acting chops, don’t fail me now.” I’m wanting him lifeless within the eye, and I’m shaking my head like, “Oh, I don’t know!” However I used to be nonetheless hoping the cut up vote was going to be on Alison, in order that even when he performed the idol, Alison would go house. As quickly as he checked out me, I used to be like, “Oh gosh, I’m toast. He knows.” That’s why I joked with him, “How’d you get that big brain?” I didn’t know that he had been tipped off. I feel he was going to play the idol regardless. However in the intervening time, it was terrifying as a result of I assumed he was studying my eyes.

When the votes towards you begin arising, you give one of many largest facepalms I’ve seen in a while. Was it a shock to you whenever you noticed your identify seem?
Truly, no. The Tribal had telegraphed it fairly clear to me. Angelina stated, “There’s someone here who I haven’t worked with, and I don’t see any future with.” I truly turned to Christian and mouthed to him, “Is it me?” He stated, “I don’t think so.” I even rotated again to Nick and [asked him]. When the votes have been being learn, and I stated sorry to Alison, a part of me hoped the remaining votes can be for her. I used to be apologizing as a result of I had lied to her and advised her Christian didn’t have an idol. So it was extra like, “Sorry, Christian did have an idol!” However Christian and I truly had a candy second the place I turned to him and requested, “Was it me?” And he stated, “That’s not who I voted for.”

The primary cause you focused Christian was that you simply felt the notion from everybody within the recreation was that he was the one making the choices in your pairing. Did that come from any particular observations?
It was a basic sense of issues. I knew from Day Certainly one of being allies with Christian that he was probably the most likable dude on the market. That was purposeful in turning into allies with him, utilizing him as a defend. However whenever you get nearer to the top of the sport, you must eliminate that defend. Not solely are they absorbing all the blame, however they’re absorbing all the credit score as properly. Christian’s little metaphors in Tribal would get the jury saying, “Wow, that was really good.” And I’m considering, “I can’t sit next to this guy at final Tribal Council! He’s going to smoke me!” [Laughs]

I used to be much more acutely aware of it as a result of, in a male/feminine pairing, the feminine is seen because the weaker of the 2. That’s a societal factor, however I’ll additionally take possession that it’s a recreation factor. Christian was a lot extra charming than me; everyone beloved him. I knew that, for my part, anyone who sits subsequent to Christian is a loser. Particularly me as a result of I couldn’t measure as much as him.

Final episode, we see you get along with Christian, Alison, Mike and Kara to vote out Carl. That coalition appears to disintegrate as quickly as that vote ends, and you go to Angelina, Davie and Nick to attempt to convey them in towards Christian. What prompted issues to dissolve so shortly?
I feel I misunderstood the state the sport was in. I assumed we have been going to be extra in “voting blocs.” That 5 that voted Carl out, in my eyes, was not likely an alliance. I hadn’t labored with Mike and Kara earlier than. I didn’t know if it was a everlasting alliance or only a one-time factor to get Carl out. My strategy was that I apologized to Nick and Davie and stated, “Look, I know it wasn’t your call to leave me out of the vote.” I threw Carl underneath the bus. “I had to get rid of the Godfather, but I still like you guys and I still want to work with you.” And I misunderstood how mad they have been at Christian. I assumed they might be rather a lot angrier at Christian and subsequently be extra on board. I underestimated the significance of alliances, which feels like a dumb factor to do on Survivor. I assumed we have been so near the top that it was going to turn into extra frantic, getting out the threats whereas we nonetheless had the time, and much less sticking to unique strains.

You’ve spoken a few occasions about being affected by the presence of the endgame. Do you get a way your rivals felt the identical means?
I’m just a little annoyed to really feel like I used to be alone in that considering. To me, it was irritating individuals informed Christian and tipped him off. I’m like, “Are you people stupid? Do you want to go to the end with Christian?” I used to be feeling the endgame creeping up. Perhaps to different individuals, it felt too quickly. One of many issues I used to be tremendous acutely aware of was the brand new fire-making problem on the remaining 4. To me, that bumps every part up by one vote. We used to see up to now, individuals would make massive strikes on the ultimate seven. I did it one transfer earlier as a result of there’s one much less vote to make a transfer. I used to be slightly annoyed that folks didn’t see, in my eyes, probably the most logical steps to take. However that’s the sport of Survivor, and that’s my dangerous and my misinterpret. Survivor isn’t just in a vacuum the place you’re going to take out the individual it is sensible to take out at that vote. There are relationships and social capital, and clearly, I lacked in social capital, that’s on me.

What was your preferential endgame ought to your plan have succeeded??
I used to be planning to be the final David remaining. I didn’t assume I stood an opportunity towards any of the remaining Davids. The order by which that occurred was much less essential than ensuring I used to be the final David. That having been stated, I didn’t need to slip utterly over to the Goliaths. In my head, I had deliberate to pendulum swing between taking out massive threats like Alison and Davie. I didn’t have two specific individuals in thoughts that I needed to take a seat subsequent to. I needed to eliminate the remaining threats within the recreation, whereas rising as a menace in my very own proper on the finish, across the last 4. In order that all of the sudden individuals would look again sitting subsequent to me on the finish.

You talked about Alison as somebody who you needed to take out ultimately as a menace, and we noticed your relationship construct out of your time at Tiva to working collectively the previous two votes. What was that dynamic like?
Alison and I had an amazing relationship. I feel my drawback within the recreation was that each one my closest allies have been the most important threats within the recreation! Gosh, wouldn’t it have been good to have some allies that have been goats who you needed to take a seat subsequent to in the long run? [Laughs] We talked about Remaining Three with Kara. However then I might say, “I don’t want to sit next to Alison!” That’s the tough half in Survivor. You’ll want to have individuals who will need to take you to the Last Three and sit subsequent to you; you possibly can’t win should you’re not sitting within the Ultimate Three. However you could be sitting subsequent to individuals you’ll be able to beat. I really feel like all of the individuals who needed to take a seat subsequent to me on the Remaining Three have been individuals who I couldn’t beat.

I simply didn’t need to be a Ultimate Three loser. It was one thing I went into the sport very acutely aware of what sometimes occurs to my archetype. I used to be like, “That to me would be so much more heart-wrenching.” I don’t imply any offense to anyone in my archetype or whoever that it’s occurred to. It’s not a press release on their recreation play; it’s a press release on how juries are likely to deal with gamers like me.

In your Ponderosa video, you advised Dr. Joe about how stunned you have been at how the sport was more durable mentally and emotionally than it was bodily for you. Are you able to elaborate on that?
Earlier than the sport, I assumed, I’ve a strategic thoughts, and I’m extraordinarily empathetic. I’m going to be the shoulder for different individuals to cry on. And at the start of the sport, I used to be—when Jessica was sharing tales about her household, and I might consolation Christian and Nick once they have been placing themselves on the market. So I used to be taking that position. Then, as the sport obtained more durable, I used to be on the opposite aspect. All of the sudden I want a shoulder to cry on. I used to be enjoying with such aggressive individuals. I’d anticipated to go on the market and be the large sister and caretaker to someone. Sadly, I don’t really feel like anyone actually wanted me. There have been such robust gamers on my season that no one wanted my assist. That’s once I excel, once I’m serving to different individuals.

You talked about your job as a technical author a few occasions on the present, particularly your position in receiving info, synthesizing it and speaking it successfully. Did you discover that labored with or towards that extra emotional aspect you simply spoke about?
I don’t assume that my feelings and technique performed towards one another. I feel I’m a particularly emotional individual in the best way I relate to individuals. However each transfer I made, for my part, was separate from emotion. For instance, I might have voted for Carl as an alternative of Alec after that huge blow-up. That may have been a particularly emotional transfer. Doing it the subsequent vote was the strategic transfer. So I say “poo poo” to anyone who thinks I used to be enjoying emotionally. I dare you to look again on my strikes and level to at least one transfer I did out of emotion. Each transfer was out of technique. Round camp, was I emotional? Did I relate to individuals on an emotional degree? Sure. However I used to be capable of separate the sport from my feelings, for my part.

Let’s converse concerning the reception behind your portrayal on the present. How do you are feeling the web group has acquired you, particularly in terms of a few of your extra emotional moments?
I acquired lots of people who have been irritated by my crying and my feelings. And I perceive that as a result of not everyone seems to be taught that it’s OK to cry and let your feelings out. So truthfully, I empathize with these individuals. For each one imply message that I get, I get 10 or 20 good ones. Individuals are saying they will relate to me, they’re an emotional individual as nicely and they’re so proud seeing somebody as an advocate for it. It’s one thing that I’m actually proud I received an opportunity to show on the present, that you would be able to be each emotional and strategic.

Outdoors of the present, I additionally inform those that it’s OK to be weak. If you end up weak, individuals relate to you a lot extra. You possibly can develop actually significant, deep connections. My friendship with Christian was definitely an instance of that. I don’t assume we might have been as shut buddies had we not shared that true emotional vulnerability and openness. Individuals may even see it as a weak spot, and I really feel sorry for them. They don’t understand how a lot good it might deliver into your life.

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